THE GATHERING

Tears are rolling down
my cheeks as i walk away
from the gathering

I feel like im lost
as i watch my clan, smiling
having a good talk

Pleasantries exchanged,
how they live their lives with their
wives and their young ones

As i tightly clutch
my brew not saying a word
questions starts hounding

I smiled off the pain
as an elderly cracks a
joke that stabs my heart

Laughter filled the room,
makes me die slowly in pain,
in pain i anguish

I puffed my last joint
along with the loneliness
and i walk away

I'll never be back
until im considered whole
in the gathering.

wrote this after feeling like crap in a family reunion